52 Week Project – October

I don’t consciously hate this time of year as much as some. I prefer the fashion, the temperature and the celebrations that autumn bring. However, for a photographer when there’s no light it’s hard not to get a bit sad. See below my images for October for the 52 week project.

Week 38 – The anticipation

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Week 38 – The anticipation

I got the pleasure to shoot my nephew this week. A perk of being a photographer and aunty, there’s always willing models! However, I hope he doesn’t start to resent me as the aunty that puts me in baskets all the time!

Week 39 – The sky’s the limit

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Week 39 – The sky’s the limit

It’s hard to not live life with your blinkers on, I had so many ideas for this week’s topic but with the light disappearing and short turn around it’s hard to keep the creativity flowing. The reason I say we live life with blinkers on it because I commute 3 hours a day, for a very monotonous drive, however it was fun to find this sunrise, proving there’s beauty everywhere!

Week 40 – Laughter is the best medicine

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Week 40 – Laughter is the best medicine

This image is quite a literal one. I’m seeing a lot of conversations about pill shaming, in this world where we constantly question our self worth I can’t believe this is something we have to face. If someone has the courage to seek help for whatever they need to make life a little better, no one should ever make them feel bad about that.

For reasurance, this image is of Vitamin C tablets.

Week 41 – Trick or Treat

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Week 41 – Trick or treat

There are many people that think the best thing about autumn is Halloween, I am not one of those people, Christmas is my thing, although pumpkin carving with the family is the best!

52 Week Project – September

Summer’s supposedly over and the daily grind commences and finding a photo a week is tough! I don’t think I could dream of the 365 project. Look below at my images from this month.

Week 34 – Back to School

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Week 34 – Back to School

Being an adult can be pretty sucky. However, my back to school theme was my trip to Croatia. Probably the furthest I’ve ever been abroad, this holiday was full of fun and experiences. From getting stranded on a questionable boat in the middle of the ocean, finding our own little nook on a beach and attempting to crash a boat party.

Week 35 – Tie A Ribbon

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Week 35 – Tie A Ribbon

Nothing makes me happier than photographing a wedding. It is such a privilege, and I have to say on the day is very stressful but, seeing their reaction to the images makes it all worthwhile.

Week 36 – Wacky Races

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Week 36 – Wacky Races

So this is my mother. I know what you’re thinking, doesn’t look very wacky, does it? But, this woman doesn’t drive, and the fact she managed to race me on her own without a car, I applaud.

Week 37 – Harvest festival

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Week 37 – Harvest festival

This post is very nostalgic, with week 37 being no exception. The Harvest festival used to be a big time for my school, I personally loved wrapping the boxes. It’s a shame I’m not that good at wrapping for Christmas. Here is my take on the Andy Warhol pop art trademark of the Cambell’s Soup.

I live it I blog it

A couple of weeks ago, Lilly¬†nominated me to post for the #ILiveItIBlogIt series where the subject of your blog post is a personal story that means something to you, or shaped you in some way. I spent quite a while racking my brain for something to tell you, thinking nothing has really happened to me that has shaped me, and then something came to me and it’s more of a chain of events really.

So here is my personal post – with Beth Roach Photography, I always try to give a personal experience so you can get to know the woman behind the lens (Wow bit cringey) but this is something I’ve never really written about.

When I left college I was a determined/stubborn girl who was going to follow her dream no matter what. I decided against the idea of uni, which many of my friends and peers had prepared for, sure that if I was to do any degree it would be photography and to me, it was a waste of money and time when I could go out into the real world and develop my skills on my own.

Soon after the summer was over and people went away, I fell into my “dream” job. A studio where I was actually getting paid to do what I always wanted. I met lovely people, used a camera every day and began to grow as an adult – everything I ever wanted.

As time went by, the job began to be a chore, I wasn’t getting paid on time/in full, I was getting stale in my work and it just started to feel like a sales pitch each day. For someone so young it became a massive burden on me and I just believed that I had to do it because it was my dream.

A year of these feelings took a hold on me, I hated getting up for work, people would think I was taking things for granted – how “easy” it was to get into this industry. For a while I believed them, thinking I was ungrateful and this was just the “real world”.

On a day off, I had gone to the beach with a friend and was due to see an old work friend that evening. I got talking with my friend’s parents about how much I didn’t want to go to work the next day, how my love for photography had gone and how I had failed at my dream. I was a wreck, I had never shown myself so vulnerable to almost strangers before and it was like I’d finally admitted something I’d hidden from myself and others for so long.

Over the next few days, I went back to work, nothing got better and I quit and went back to the job I had at college. Feeling like a complete failure. I was completely taken advantage of for my age, talent and enthusiasm and I was never going to touch my camera again.

It took me a year to fall back into photography, friends and family would nag me and say it’s such a waste that I don’t do it anymore and I always promised I would one day just give me time. And here I am.

As I look back on it now all I can think of is that you are not prepared for this at school or college, you are prepared to get grades and go to uni, but what do you do when you completely lose your way.

Don’t let anyone take your passion, dreams, confidence or enthusiasm away.